Category Archives: Porter

Fear of Getting Older

I don’t write this in reference to me getting older (that’s what my eye cream is for!), but I’ve been experiencing something lately that I’m sure every mom can relate to: I don’t want my kids to grow up.

I know this may sound silly. I remember hearing other moms talk about it before I became a mom, and I just didn’t get it. Why wouldn’t you want your kids to grow up and get older?

Here’s the thing. Porter just turned 3 a few months ago, and Cayia is 8 months. Right now they are these perfect tiny human beings, and it’s almost as if I want to remember them like this always. I remember feeling this way when Porter was around Cayia’s age. The closer he got to 1, the more I freaked out, but with him, this fear of him getting older has been especially prominent lately. 

He amazes me every day. He isn’t even a toddler anymore. He is straight up little boy. He wants to do things by himself and he often says things like “No, don’t help me,” or “No, I do it myself.” And then I cry because I feel like he doesn’t need me anymore.

I know he does need me, and sometimes he will still walk up to me and say, “Mommy, hold me?” and if I’m able and not holding Cayia, I always snatch him up in my arms. Who knows when I’ll no longer be able to do that (or worse, when he stops asking.) 


The other night we were putting Porter to bed, and he crawled into my lap and put his head on my shoulder, and I swear my heart just burst. I wrapped my arms around him and just hugged him. Sure, his legs were dangling off my lap, but I held him “like a baby” as he says, and kissed his head and cherished the moment.  

Porter is so damn smart. I know every parent probably thinks this about her own child, but I am amazed by how much he learns and retains every day.  For Christmas, David’s sister bought Porter a Thomas Me Reader Electronic Library. He loves it.  All the pictures on the fronts of the books are almost identical, but somehow he can decipher between them. He knows which one is Helpful Thomas versus Thomas Makes a Wish. Truthfully, if I only had the pictures to go off of, and the titles weren’t there, I honestly wouldn’t know which book was which.  

He also knows what a semi-circle is. I don’t know why, but I can’t get over this. The other day we were coloring in his Thomas coloring book (do you see a trend?) and on Thomas’s body, there is a semi-circle. Out of nowhere he said, “I’m gonna color the semi-circle blue.” My jaw dropped. Who the heck taught you what a semi-circle was, kid?  I then quizzed him and opened to a bunch of pages and asked him to find me other semi-circles. 


I am also amazed by his vocabulary and pronunciation of most words. I think most people who met him now would not believe that he was ever in speech therapy. He can say delicious (and it’s so cute because he stresses the lish part), temperature, and ankylosaurus to name a few.  He still pronounces waffles like faffles most of the time, though, and while I’m sure I should, I don’t correct him half the time because I think it’s so cute. 

And don’t get me started on Cayia. Right now she is the perfect size for snuggling. When I hold her vertically, her head fits perfectly on my shoulder and my arm perfectly under her butt. She snuggles so close, and it makes my hurt heart thinking that she probably won’t snuggle with me for very much longer. (Fun fact: I was looking through some papers the other day, and both Cayia and Porter were exactly 25 inches at their 6 month appointments. I can’t wait to compare their 9 month stats!) 


I can’t believe she’s closer to one now than she is to being a newborn. I know a lot of people say they are babies until they are two, but she doesn’t even seem like a baby anymore. At times I wonder what she’ll be like at Porter’s age, or I even try to imagine her 6 months from now, but then I stop myself because I feel like I’m wishing away all this time, and I want her to stay a baby forever. 


I spent some time yesterday organizing and sorting some of her clothes that no longer fit her into bins. There were so many adorable outfits that she was only able to wear once or twice, and it’s just hard to believe that she’s changing and growing so quickly. She gives the sweetest, biggest, gummiest smiles. In fact, every day when I pick her up from day care, I rush in to see her because I know a sweet smile awaits me. (Porter is a whole nother story, by the way. He always says “No!” when I arrive and whines that he wants to stay and play with his friends.) 

So, most days my life seems crazy, and most of the time I feel like I’m a part of an unwinnable rat race, as I multitask ten billion things as once. This is really really hard for me, but I need to try to slow down and ignore the craziness and the mess, and just accept this phase of motherhood. I need to let Porter stay up a few minutes later, and not think about the dishes when he begs to read “one more book.” I need to ignore the laundry that’s been sitting in the laundry basket for three days on the couch and get down on the floor with my kids instead. It’s going to take a lot of effort on my part, but I know that in a week, a month, a year, I’ll be glad that I did. 

While I’ll always see them as my babies, they’ll only be babies once. 


Porter is THREE!

Porter turned THREE a few days ago, and  absolutely cannot believe how quickly the past three years have gone. When he turned two, there was still a lot of baby left in him. Now he’s just straight up a little man. David taught him how to pee standing up.  If that doesn’t say “little man,” I don’t know what does! 

If three was an adjective that described a child’s behavior or temperament instead of age, I would say that Porter is REALLY three (if that makes sense.)  He is absolutely adorable, hilarious, ornery, and frustrating.  


He is so smart. I know every parent probably think his/her child is smart, but he really is. It’s amazing how quickly he picks up on things, and he can be so manipulative. He sure knows how to work the system in his favor. For instance, yesterday it had been awhile since he had gone potty, so I suggested that we go and try. He said “Okay. I go potty and then I get candy.” I said “Well, no. That wasn’t really part of our agreement, buddy.” He completely ignored me and walked to the bathroom while talking to himself saying, “I go potty and get candy.” He has also recently started to bargain with us. If he asks to play after dinner before bedtime, sometimes we’ll say something like “Okay. You can play for ten minutes before it’s bedtime.” He’ll just look at us and respond with “How about twenty minutes?” Like, who are you, kid?! 

One of his favorite responses when he doesn’t want to do something is “No, I don’t.” Usually this involves a pouty lip and sometimes tears, as well.  Likewise, for awhile, he was throwing fits and saying “I need it!” to everything that he wanted but wasn’t getting. We tried to teach him the difference between “I want” and “I need.” He seems to understand and says “I want” a lot now, but he still doesn’t like when he asks for something that he doesn’t get. I can be a pushover, but sorry, you can’t have a piece of chocolate at 7:00 a.m. 


I am amazed at the words and phrases that he’s been using on a regular basis lately, too. Recently he’s been saying “probably” and for some reason I find it hilarious.  We were doing a puzzle the other night and when I asked him if a certain piece fit in a spot, he said “probably.” Later, I prompted him to find a certain piece and he said, “I’m working on it.” Another hilarious phrase he has started saying is “I’m on it.” If we ask him to do something, he sometimes announces, “I’m on it!” and runs to go do whatever it is we asked. This kid is something else, I tell ya. 

He thrives on routine, which often works in our favor, but sometimes it backfires. If we do something once, it suddenly turns into exactly how we need to do it every time.  Lately, his bedtime routine needs to be followed to a T or complete chaos ensues. The other night David let Porter turn off the bathroom light with his toes after a bath (don’t ask) and now he wants to turn the light off with his toes all the time.


He’s extremely independent at times and wants to do a lot of things all by himself. “All by myself” is a phrase we hear multiple times a day. So, when he asks me to hold him, I can’t help but to give in and pick him up. I always squeeze him extra tight because I know that there will be a day soon when he no longer cares about mommy holding him tight. 

We celebrated Porter’s birthday with a small party a few days before Christmas. I designed some simple invites. I wanted to use a picture that showed how grown up he has become. 



He was so excited and loved having people over for his party. Whenever anyone told him “Happy Birthday,” he screamed in response, “Happy Birthday!” It was too cute. He loved getting sung to and blowing out the candles. 


On his actual birthday, we started the day with funfetti birthday pancakes (a tradition in our home) and had a pretty lazy day at home. Plus, the weather was awful, and the roads were covered with ice, so we didn’t mind staying home and cuddling in our jammies most of the day. I also bombarded my newsfeed with some of my favorite Porter pictures throughout the day. 



All in all, this little boy amazes me more and more every day. I feel so lucky to be his mommy, and while I’m trying to teach him things such as manners, how to deal with his emotions, and why it’s not nice to yell “boo!” in Cayia’s face, I know he teaches me so much more than I will ever teach him. 

Porter, we love you, buddy. Thank you for bringing so much joy into our lives. 


Free Products and Samples from PINCHme

Hi, friends.

Sorry that I have been MIA lately. Life got busy (or at least it felt like it was busier than usual) and then my site got hacked and every single post that I’ve ever written was modified and/or deleted. It was a headache to figure out, but I think it’s all fixed now. Let’s hope.

Anyway, I have something fun to tell you about! 

Recently I was contacted by a website called PINCHme. I actually was already familiar with this website/service because I had heard about it and used it a year or two ago. They offered to send me a FREE blogger box of products, and really, who is going to say no to that?

Porter was really excited when the box came, and he couldn’t wait for me to open it. He also thought it was especially cool that the box was personalized for him with a P (it wasn’t, but try telling that to an almost 3 year old.) 


When I finally opened it up, Porter was disappointed to see that it wasn’t filled with candy or dinosaurs–though the granola bar caught his eye–but I was giddy with excitement. Free stuff is good, but free stuff that I’ll actually use is even better.

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And you can get free products sent to your door, too! If you want to try out PINCHme, the process is super easy.  Go to their website, and sign up. Fill out a member profile, and answer some questions about your shopping habits. Choose the samples that interest you, and they will be sent right to your door FOR FREE! 

Once you receive your products, try them out and complete a short survey giving your opinions of the products. That’s it! 

Keep in mind that I received a blogger box for review purposes, and you will only receive the individual samples that you sign up to receive. 

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I think new samples are only offered once a month, and I believe it’s always on a Tuesday. The next time you can log in and get free samples is this upcoming Tuesday, December 15 at 12 pm ET, so sign up and fill out your member profile now! When I used the PINCHme website previously, I remember samples running out quickly, so set a reminder on your phone or write it on your calendar!


2015 Holiday Gift Guide: Toddlers & Babies

I can’t believe Christmas is only a month away.  I don’t know about you, but I need to get a move on with my shopping. If you’re looking for some gift ideas for your toddler or baby, here are some things that either I have already purchased (or plan on purchasing) or that my kids already have and love! 

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You really can’t go wrong with books, and Porter is obsessed with his Pigeon books. He also has one Pete the Cat book that he loves, but I’m looking to add more to his collection. He was introduced to Pete the Cat by one of this speech therapists, and he immediately loved it. 

Porter has three sets of these blocks. They are perfect for tiny hands (and also perfect for building “castles” which is his thing lately.)  He’s been playing with these for at least a year and a half now, and he still loves them. 

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My sister bought Porter one of these personalized pillowcases from Pillows2 a few months ago, and Porter loves it. Whenever I change his sheets and put this in the wash, he asks where his dinosaur pillow is. This is the perfect gift for any toddler (they have tons of different options, too, including some adorable princess ones for girls!) 

Both of my kiddos desperately need jammies, so they are definitely on our list. Old Navy has such cute ones (and they’re affordable, too!) I know Porter will love the train jammies and I love the Christmas light bulb ones for baby girl. 

I found these Brain Quest Question Cards at Marshall’s a few weeks ago and I snatched them up because I thought they would be perfect for Porter. 

I love bandana bibs! They’re so much cuter than normal bibs.  I saw these and thought they’d be perfect for Cayia’s stocking. They also have plenty of boy options, too! 

Porter loves his play kitchen (we have this KidKraft one) and he loves to make us onion, tomato, and peanut butter sandwiches. I know it won’t be long before Cayia starts to play with it, too, so I’m hoping to add this play toaster to the set. Porter played with his second cousin’s play toaster recently and loved it! 

I’m having a really hard time shopping for Cayia. I know she’s a baby and doesn’t really need much if anything, but Porter was only three days shy of turning one at his first Christmas, so it was a lot easier to shop for him. I found this owl stackerhedgehog rattle, and pop! pop! piano and thought they’d be fun little gifts for Cayia. Finally, it won’t be long before she’s eating real food, so I thought a girly plate and bowl set (though Skip Hop has tons of options) would be nice so she doesn’t have to eat off of Porter’s dinosaur ones. 

Last but not least, Porter loves to draw on our giant chalkboard that we have right off of our kitchen. I figured he’d enjoy his own chalkboard and knew this would be a perfect addition to his playroom. I love that you can add a roll of paper, too! 

If you have any great baby or toddler gift ideas, I’d love to hear them!

Have a happy and restful Thanksgiving!